[15] Do you think your better off alone

Marcus was calling Jazzi’s phone. It was 7 in the morning.She was sleeping, she hated waking up this early.

Jazzi: hello

Marcus: good morning

Jazzi: what time is it ??

Marcus: Its 7:15

Jazzi: Why are you up ?

Marcus: I don’t know i just woke up and i called u cus u told me to

Jazzi: okay

Marcus: How is she ?? did u talk to her last night ??

Jazzi: yaa she said she thought about it and she dont want any thing that gotta do with you. Im sorry Marcus but she told me to tell you.

Marcus: What did I do wrong??

Jazzi : nothing, I tried talking to her but she wouldn’t listen to me, she told me what to tell you as soon as i walked into the house. She dont want to talk about it and I still dont understand why she wouldn't give you a chance. Give her some time shes not thinkin right.

Marcus: Can I come over I wana try to talk to her ??.....please

Jazzi: Marcus i dont think thats a good idea, she’s sleeping now and she would get mad at me for letting you into the house.

Marcus: listen go to the glass door and open it and act like you didnt kno that im coming over. Dont let her know that you opened the door aiight ??

Jazzi: okay but dont expect seeing me cus ill be sleeping okay.

Marcus: btw ama tell her that we talked cus i want her to tell me all that shit to my face.

Jazzi : okay but please take it easy u kno how mad she can get.

Marcus: okay thanks ill be there in a lil bit ama go buy breakfast then ill be there ama go straight to her room Okay

Jazzi: okay ama go to sleep now byee

Marcus: byee

Marcus went and got some breakfast then headed straight to Aysha’s house. He took the back door then went into the pool area, he opened the glass door slowly, he was hoping he wouldn't find Aysha up, and he got what he was hoping for. He went up to her room after putting the food on a tray. Her door was closed but not locked. He walked in slowly and placed the food on the table next to her. He took a look at her and smiled. He loved looking at her while she was sleeping peacefully. He couldnt help seeing her beautiful face with out doing any thing, so he kissed her cheek then sat on the side of the bed waiting for her to wake up. He was eating his cinnamon sugar bagel with cream cheese when he seen her open her eyes and look at him.

Marcus:Good morning... I got you ur favorite breakfast meal. ( he said it with a little smile)

Aysha: What are you doing in ma room ?? and how did you get into the house ??

Marcus: Well im in your room cus i wana talk to you about every thing. Im not walking out of here until you answer all ma questions . And you don’t need to kno how i got into the house :P

Aysha: ...... Marcus dont make this hard for both of us im not in the mood.

Marcus: aight im not gona make it hard, eat your food and we’ll talk.

Aysha: aight
she stood up and went to the bathroom, all she had on was little boxers and a bra. She brushed her teeth and face then went back into the room and throw on a big t shirt. He was sitting with his legs crossed on the bed. She came and sat in front of him and looked at him, he placed the food in front of her then smiled, she smiled back and started eating. He drank his juice and finished his bagel by time she finished they started talking..

Aysha: Did you talk to Jazzi ?

Marcus: yaa , she told me every thing

Aysha: good

Marcus: What did i do wrong ?

Aysha: ..nothing.... its hard to explain the way i acted

Marcus: well explain it for me cus last time i checked loving someone is not a wrong thing.

Aysha: Marcus i dont want anyone and im sure by u telling me the way you feel is gona make things hard for both of us, Im goin back to kuwait soon

Marcus: Soo ??

Aysha:...I dont want to be in a relationship and when you told me you loved me i was shocked, A million thoughts came into my head, I didnt mean to hurt you or to act fucked up... I know if i told u i loved u back and didn't mean it i would do something one day and fuck are friendship up... from the beginning i told you all we can be is friends and now all i want from you is to leave me alone i dont want to get closer to you anymore... do u kno how hard is it to kno that if i go back im not gona come here until 6 months.... Marcus I rather be alone, i need to spend time studying its better for me...i thought about it.



Aysha had a tear that went down her cheek,he got closer and wiped it with his hand and said..


"Do you REALLY think your better off alone ??"


Swagger

[14] Day 'n Night

"Day and night I toss and turn, I keep stressing my mind, mind
I look for peace but see I don't attain What I need for keeps this silly game we play, play
Now look at this Madness to magnet keeps attracting me, I try to run but see I'm not that fast I think I'm first but surely finish last, last"

His phone did not stop ringing , It was Aysha the girl that he loved with all his heart and the one that is killing his heart slowly . He didnt want to answer the phone cus he didnt want to say somethin that would cost there friendship. On his way to the liquor store he drove in silence with his phone ringing. After the 11th call he turned it off and then walked into the liquor store. He brought a bottle of Gray Goose, the best tasting Vodka that would make u get drunk till you forget about your life nd thats what he wanted. He hated his life right now, he felt alone in this life. The only girl in this world that he loved didnt feel the same way about him. He felt like SHIT. He drove to the park, the place were they used to come to every weekend to spend some time together side by side , and for the first time he didnt have anyone by his side. The relationship that Marcus and Aysha had was complicated. They were always there for each other. Every one thought they were dating but they never did. Aysha would never give him the opportunity to make him feel that she cares about him more than she should... He sat there reminiscing about all the great days n nights they had together and he thought about what he was going to do.. but he really didnt kno what to do he was lost :/
After drinking half of the bottle he switch on his phone.
He was really fucked up by now
...14 miss calls and there all from Aysha
... 1 msg
Msg from Jazzi “WE NEED TO TALK ASAP”

calling: Jazzi 813-505......

Marcus: “Whats good”
Jazzi: What the fuck is going on ??
Marcus: ask your friend
Jazzi: i did she dont wana talk.
Marcus: how come she dont wana talk...shes actin like shes sad just the same way she acted as if she was into me, well tell her i fuckin hate her
Jazzi: R u drunk ?
Marcus: i guess so lol
Jezzi: you at your house ??
Marcus: naa im at the park
Jazzi: okay dont move im on ma way.
Marcus: cool get me some food im fuckin hungry
Jazzi: okay ill be there soon byee
Marcus: byee

~20 minuets later~
Jazzi pulles up next to Marcus’s car. He was in it and he hid the bottle thinkin that she wouldn't kno that his drunk. they both rolled down there windows. His car was full of smoke cus he was smoking a lot in it.

Jazzi: lock yo car n get your ass into mine.
Marcus: Y??
Jazzi: cus your fuckin drunk
Marcus: ight damn
~he got into the car~
Marcus: How did u know that somethin was wrong?
Jazzi: She called me crying her eye balls out and all she said was “his not coming back, Im so stupid” so i left Barak and i went home to see what was wrong n i found her cryin in her room and she wouldn't open the door.
Marcus: I told her I loved her
Jazzi: ( she smiled at him and said ) AND ??
Marcus: She said some shit then kicked me out
Jazzi: im sure she was shocked. give her some time
Marcus: Yoo im sick of this, I treat her like a queen, I do what ever i can to make see her smile and she cant even give me a chance to show her that im not like other guys....man fuck that bitch, i can get 50 other girls better than her if i wanted to
Jazzi: Then y dont find one instead of getting drunk and fucked up like this.
Marcus:.... aight tell me what i should do then ?
Jazzi: ill take you home now take a shower then go to sleep and call me in the morning so we can talk about it when ur in ur mind okay.
Marcus:....aight
Jazzi : ill let khaled bring ur car to your house iight ill drive you there.
Marcus: okay


Jazzi dropped Marcus off then called khaled and told him that Marcus was drunk and couldn't drive and asked him to get his car and he agreed.
As soon as Marcus came home he went into the shower. He felt better after the shower, he got dressed into his boxers then fell asleep and didn’t wake up till the next morning.



This post was made by Swagger ; i hope u liked it and im sorry if its not as good as u expected it to be im not a big fan of writing but i had to make a new part for the story cus it been a long time sence We wrote a post for the story. okay guys take care love youu :**

Yoo girlz dis is what u should do..

if a guy wants yu, nothin cann keep himm away . & if he doesnt nothin cann make himm stay . don't make someone feel bad so theyy will be with yu. stop making excuses for a quy and his behavior . allow your intuition to save you from heartache . stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be . slower is better . never live your life for a guy before you find what makes you truly happy . if he doesn't make you happy now; chances are he never will . if a relationship ends because the guy was not treating you as you deserve; then hell no . don't settle . if you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is . don't stay because you think "it will get better ." you'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better . don't chase a guy, if he want's to leave let him make that decision; maybe he will regret it later . the only person you can control in a relationship is you . always have your own set of friends separate from his . maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you . don't spend ALL of your time with him; you'll get sick of eachother . have time for yourself and your friends, it keeps things fresh and new . after arguing don't talk untill you both are ready; you will both understand eachother better; and most likely see eachothers point of view . if something bothers you, speak up . don't bottle your feelings bcause you are scared to express them, if that's the case you abviously are not comfortable in the relationship, and that's a BIG problem . never let a guy know everything; he will use it against you later . TRUST & HAPPINESS are EVERYTHING . yu cannot change a guy's behavior . change comes from within . don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...do not make him into a quasi-god . he is a guy, nothing more nothing less . never let a guy define who you are . be yourself . never borrow someone else's guy . l0l if he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you . a guy will only treat you the way you allow him to treat yu . if you expext respect in a relationship, be the first to show it . all men are NOT dogs . yu should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street . if you are the only one trying to make things worse; something is seriously wrong . you need time to heal between relationships; there is nothing cute about baggage . deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship; You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you, a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals ! look for someone complimentary, not supplementary . dating is fun; even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right . make him miss you sometimes . when a guy always know where you are, and your always readily available to him he takes it for granted . don't fully commit to a guy who doesn't give you everything that you need & vice versa . keep him in your radar, but get to know others . friends are friends you both need them in your life, so don't get jealous over them . yu can't change everything about youself to be perfect for someone; if it's not meant to be it's just not meant to be . don't force it if you two are destined, to be together everything will find it's place and fall right back together . no matter how wonderful it sounds there is NO such thing as a fairytale relationship; there are always ups and downs, so if you truely care for eachother and you both are in it together than you can stick the tough times out; so you can enjoy the good ones . i believe once a cheater liar ect. alwayss one . if a guy has treated a past girl like shit; what makes you think you are any different ? in a relationship; do not boast, beg, be jealous, or greedy; these thing are not found in love; instead be kind, sweet, generous, loving, caring, trustworthy, trusting, un controlling and most of all yourself .

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whats up :D

Hey every one were really sorry that we have not updated are blog in a long time. We have been busy this summer.We are both are not in Kuwait right now. We will write the next post of are story as soon as we have time i promise :) This summer has been fun for both of us. I also wana say RIP M.J we will miss him, He will always be the King.July 4th is in 2 days :D I cant wait ma family celebrates big time on this day :) My friends and I are gona wear black on that day to show are appreciation to M.J its somethin almost every one gona do here for him.Okay guys take care and I hope your havin a good and fun summer,
We love n miss u all :**

Swagger